Spirit of Pentecost

"When the Day of Pentecost had fully come, they were all with one accord in one place. And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting. Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance. "

(Acts 2:1-4 New King James)

Even though everyone must find his/her own truth, we can understand each other. As christians we are the blood brothers and sisters in Christ, more related to one another than to our biological family. The spark of One Life has descended into each of us; it may enlighten our thoughts, warm our hearts, and ignite our will... and once gone up in flames it may unite with the Highest Fire!
Fifty days after the Resurrection, when the jewish people were celebrating the giving of ten commandments to Moses, the apostles experienced the Spirit individually: God moved from heavens above within a man!
On Golgotha the universal Love was born on earth and now it warmed up the hearts of the apostles; The deed of Christ came alive in their souls - the great communion of humanity! Tongues of fire descended in the same Upper Room where the Last Supper took place - and surely not by chance: the connection is clear.

The Holy Spirit is the feminine, motherly aspect of the Trinity, often associated with Virgin Mary and also with Divine Wisdom, Holy Sophia. Besides that, the Holy Spirit is Christ within us; the aura of Christ surrounds the earth and we can get in touch with it - the fire of the Holy Spirit fulfills us. It is the blood of Christ, the astral radiance of his fiery Love. I am the Chalice into which the new wine of the Spirit is poured, from the heart of the altar to the altar of the heart.

From week to week, month to month, year to year, over and over again as a prodigal son I may return from the world of sensual pleasures (as well as that of hunger and dirt) closest to Home here on earth - the altar. And the foretaste of the heavenly feast follows. It is the son who decides to return and takes the first steps. Grace won't fall upon your lap without any effort by you. Redemption is not yours automatically, it requires your co-operation to become fully active in your life. That means you have to open yourself and it happens through prayer and sacraments.

Forerunners of the Humanity

A human consciousness is evolving and so should his religion. Yet we see how religious institutions and their authorities stumble far behind, trying to hold on to the past and prevent the inevitable. Therefore they are fighting against the Truth, but they can only slow down that which is to come, because it is the part of the Great Divine Plan!
It is quite understandable that many glbt-people give up organised religion because they are disappointed in dogmatism, or in a worsed case they give up religion. Period. For me it was never an option: In my eyes fundamentalism and atheism are just two extremes, just like Christ was crucified in the middle of two wrong-doers. If you belong to the church where you have to hide your true identity and listen to the preachers questioning your faith, I can't see much chance to become a whole, balanced individual.
Real wholeness is just that: balance between your faith and your identity. To love God - as he loves you - and your neighbor as yourself! By denying and suppressing your God-created nature, you sin against your Creater! Sexuality is sacred, a gift from God, not to be shared with just anybody and not for your own satisfaction only, but to make your partner happy! We can all be "fruitful" and grow the fruits of the spirit. No lighted candle is covered with a vessel, so let your light shine before men.
It's very important to know people who already have walked that road: support and exchanging experiences can make everything so much easier, though in your heart you still need to deal with it by yourself. Religion is a private matter, a matter of consciense, what comes to the way of thought and the way of life, but it will lack much of its potential without community, without sacraments. Christianity can not be practised alone: it's all about "love one another" and "OUR Father"!
It's outrageous that some people have a nerve to question my relationship with God, which is only between me and my Lord! Only he can see my heart and judge me. I think many who call themselves christians, would gladly burn us at the stake, and if Christ Jesus walked on earth today as in Palestine 2000 years ago, he would be crucified again by those so-called christians (as he is still crucified in the spirit!).
Often I get the impression that even if a person said he believes in God, he repels the Supernatural! We can even talk about "spiritual materialism". The next step logically is to throw away the Bible, too. If the "Word of God" was "finished" and "complete", it would be just a relic of the past. But the Word of God is Christ, not the book, and christianity is not teaching. Christianity is a living, spiritual impulse which wells up from Golgatha and flows to the future. That stream of the vital light-blood of Christ's radiant love is made active in eternal present through the mystical act of the Mass. The Mass is a wonderful instrument to help us to develope our intimate relationship with Christ within. Only then we can fully comprehend the Christ's sacrificial deed for us!
This Christ-impulse can not be owned by churches, nor chained by dogma, neither imprisoned in the Bible. Intellectual faith, thinking with a heart, "gnosis"; that's my kind of faith.
I think glbt-christians should boldly participate the Pride parade, standing out and testifying for the Lord who loves us with unconditional love! So what if people mock us and hate us?
Jesus said: "Blessed are you when men hate you, when they exclude you and insult you and reject your name as evil because of the Son of Man. Rejoice that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven. Fot that is how their fathers treated the prophets" (Luke 6:22-23. NIV). Think about the early christian martyrs who died because of their faith! We are unlikely to be killed, but why fear those who can kill the body but not the soul.
Along the years I have become more radical in my theological thinking. No longer I merely think that we glbt-people have a right to be what we are, but we have a specific mission - we are the forerunners of the humanity!